Disappointment

Graham backed out of going to the fertility appointment in May 2004. This caused no end of problems between us - but we are still together.

He is scared of the changes having a child will make to our lives and isn't sure that he wants to start over again as his other children are virtually grown up now.

I keep praying that one day he will change his mind and allow me to have child #1, and allow me to be fulfilled in my lifetimes dream of becoming a mom.