Bolt out of the blue

Well having announced to the family that yet again I failed to get pregnant, by sister comes up with an idea......she'll have a child for me.  She'll be a surrogate using Peter's sperm i.e. Peter and my sister to have children together and I raise them.

Not sure I can cope with that idea.  I am able to cep with the idea of adopting and the child not being genetically related to either of us, but my sister and my partner....too much for me to cope with right now.

:(

Well it's all over for me, got a negative pregnancy test - not that it was a surprise, but I really hoped that I'd be able to conceive again :(

Peter still isn;t sure about adoption, but we're not going to think about that at the moment, I need time to grieve and wallow in self pity for my inability to be able to perform what is supposed to be a most basic female function - produce a child!