progress

Started BCP (2 days late)

more delays

Well arrived this morning so Wednesday I will be starting the pill

Apparently my CMV is still + ive so I have to wait 6 weeks before I can have it re-tested and only when it comes back as - ive can go ahead

So no + pg before we go away Looks like it'll be October at the very earliest before we can have our first, and probably only IVF attempt the way things are going

Think I'm going to disappear for a while as I am totally and right now and I'm starting to think that it really isn't going to happen for me after all

booked another appointment with a Dr in my surgery to discuss the way forward for getting rid of this +ive CMV result, as I really can't be waiting for 6 weeks in the hope that it will clear itself

221 days until I am classed as too old for TTC through egg-share and my only chance of ever conceiving a child is gone forever

try again

Been to get my bloods done at the clinic, they will have my results back by the end of the week, apparently they haven't matched me to an egg recipient yet - Helen, my nurse, said that as soon as the blood result comes back I will be matched almost straight away - when she told me that I had not been matched already I was ready to explode, but she said that I should be ready to go by my next cycle, that's when I pointed out that my next cycle starts next week - she disappeared and came back with the pill and told me to start taling them on CD3 as I will be matched very very soon (possibly the same day that the result comes back) and if I go on the pill I will be able to have my cycle sync. with the recipients

more delays

why does nothing ever go straight forward - I've now got to get one of my blood tests re-done before we can proceed

I'm currently waiting to hear back from the Dr's as to the best way to play it, if nothing satisfactory in terms of timescales, then i'll go to the clinic and pay for the test - that way I'll at least be guaranteed to get the test done in good time, I think it'll have put paid to starting on the next cycle

progress

We've been matched

just phoned DH to confirm he's Ok with the match, and he is, so waiting to get a call one day next week to confirm our next steps

I feel and adn shaking all over

hoping

I phoned the clinic up this morning to see if any more sperm has been offered to the clinic and if a match has been made as yet.....

The woman dealing with the sperm matching doesn't fill me with confidence at all - she sounds really dopy and not at all with it. I guess that would explain why we've not been matched yet and are only now being semi-looked at.

Another sample was offered to the clinic yesterday, but all she said to me was that once a suitable match has been offered, they would contact us I've heard that one before .

I'm just that a match is made soon - I can't stand all the , not knowing what's happening and the feeling of total helplessness as there is nothing I can do to speed things along

wallowing

I called the clinic yesterday as I’d not heard anything from them, I’ve been matched to an egg recipient , but now waiting for the Sperm

I thought they’d been sorting that whilst waiting for my chromosome results, but apparently not

I spoke to the woman who deals with that side of things and she said that all being well we’ll here within a couple of months at which point I – totally.

I explained to her that I really don’t have the time to be waiting a couple of months before they get round to matching me as I can not do IVF after January next year due to my age, she disappeared to get my notes and said that though there are a couple of people to get matched before me, I’m to call her at the end of the week to see how far she’s got with getting hold of some sperm. I told her that we were going away in September and she said that they’ll try to get it before we go away, but if not then they’ll hold on to it for when we get back – not the news I was hoping for – I ran upstairs (as I was at home at the time) and as I felt so deflated and let down, I was under the impression that they had the sperm already at the clinic and that we were already sorted out and that the only thing we were waiting on was the egg recipient match.

It seems that everytime we get close to starting something happens (or in this case doesn’t happen) and throws the whole timeline back – right now it feels as though we are never going to even get the chance to try never mind actually succeed.

communication

Called the clinic; will get a call in a week regarding being matched