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I called the clinic yesterday as I’d not heard anything from them, I’ve been matched to an egg recipient , but now waiting for the Sperm

I thought they’d been sorting that whilst waiting for my chromosome results, but apparently not

I spoke to the woman who deals with that side of things and she said that all being well we’ll here within a couple of months at which point I – totally.

I explained to her that I really don’t have the time to be waiting a couple of months before they get round to matching me as I can not do IVF after January next year due to my age, she disappeared to get my notes and said that though there are a couple of people to get matched before me, I’m to call her at the end of the week to see how far she’s got with getting hold of some sperm. I told her that we were going away in September and she said that they’ll try to get it before we go away, but if not then they’ll hold on to it for when we get back – not the news I was hoping for – I ran upstairs (as I was at home at the time) and as I felt so deflated and let down, I was under the impression that they had the sperm already at the clinic and that we were already sorted out and that the only thing we were waiting on was the egg recipient match.

It seems that everytime we get close to starting something happens (or in this case doesn’t happen) and throws the whole timeline back – right now it feels as though we are never going to even get the chance to try never mind actually succeed.